Caught of Guard.

"It's almost check-out time," I hear him say. I'm still half asleep but I assume it must almost be noon. I open my eyes a slit and see Jessica on my side typing away on her laptop. Probably writing about something that's on her mind. Matt is still in the room, so I just place my hand on her lap as a gesture to comfort her. I love this girl I really do. Sometimes I reach out and feel her arm, just to feel that she's really there besides me and I'm not dreaming. I like to know that shes there.
Ugh my throat feels like shit, I shouldn't of stayed up talking so late. I'm running on less than 4 hours of sleep and have the flu. I need to start taking care of myself.
"Hey so I'm gonna head out now," he says. Finally. Sounds mean but I've been wanting it to be Jess and me ever since Edgar left late last night. He was so quite towards the end. Who knows what was on his mind. "Okay we'll we are gonna check out in like 20 mins anyways," she says. I sit up and give him a half-assed hug and lock the door behind him. I can't stop coughing so I heat up whatever was left in my cup from the night before. The hot liquid calms my aching throat. Ahh... Much better.
"What was I saying last night?" she says. Hmmm I don't really remember. Pessimistic stuff. The booze had got her talking and lately because of life, she's only had bad things to talk about. "Just about always being the friend and how people always lie Jess. Not a big deal." "Hmm at least I didn't say his name." "Yeah I know, at least we both didn't."
In the car, I flip open the mirror and look at my bloodshot eyes. Damn I guess I'm gonna wear sunglasses for my lunch with Travis. Jess and I talk about everything that happened and Matt's friend Carlos that we met last night. Tea at Starbucks for 3 bucks and then we are on our way.
Hanging out with Travis, is always such a good distraction. He always babies me and takes care of me when I'm not feeling to well. We sit in the sun trying to soak up some extra warmth. Halfway through our conversation Justin and Crystal pull up next to our table. She's on lunch and Justin, being the loyal boyfriend that he is, is spending it with her. I haven't seen them in a while.
"Its almost 3:30 babe, I gotta go back," she says. They leave us and we decided to go get something to eat before Travis has to go to work. All the while inside waiting for our food, I keep looking behind my shoulder. He doesn't notice. I'm pretty good at acting normal. I seem to have him convinced. I'm paranoid that I might run into him. It's happened before and it can't happen now because I'm so close to relapse I feel nauseous.
"Finish your food," he smiles at me. I look down at my half eaten food and feel sickened. I haven't eaten in two days but I'm still not hungry. "I'm full," I lie with a smile. I bat my lashes and put the leftovers away. "Lets go, I'll drop you off at Justin's." I sigh. I really hope I don't relapse from all the memories that have been left scattered around that house. "Sounds great, I haven't been over there in a while," I say. There's a good reason why I haven't been over there.